It actually feels desperate when your fantasy is fulfilled. Coz it only lived inside your dream and from now on you get no place to hide when you are looking for a shelter. You got it once and then you lost it forever.
"I have a horrible feeling that I am a greedy perverted selfish apathetic cynical depraved morally bankrupt woman who can’t even call herself a _."积极过好有意义的确丧生活
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